The night of night

The night is long and cold. I cant fall alseep again and again, this kind of situation once disappear but now it coming back.
Taking advantage from you betray you, hurt you, not deserve love from you, all this thing i saw from what you write. Saying thanks to those who hurt you, so mean to you.... It look like only I am wrong there.
Yea i only know how to hurt you, i only know betray you, i the one not deserved your love. Misunderstand you. All is my fault......... You only think for your own. You dont even try to understand, Only know what you do is right, what u think is mature.

All the way there, i do all my best, teach you all i know, share with you all my thing, i never keep anything or not want to help you, you HAVE any problem i am the first one come to help. I keep putting you the first one. I know what i doing. You maybe only think of how and how bad i am, like a evil man.

I try to help you with all i have, teaching you the real world look like hoping one day you will know how it look like. But what i did what i do is just a waste. I know you think i am not mature, always like a kid. But HONESTLY do you really know what i think and what i want? UNderstand me? ASk yourself what you know about me? what i want? i always do what u want what you hope. Anything was passed. You wont understand me, is good for you to keep think i am bad and hurting you, think back is who hurting who, remind all the passed then you will know how hurt am i. I wont blame anything, i wont blame for other, i just want to love myself more. Just like what you always did. I dont want to think for other anymore, is just making me suffer.

Enjoy the long night with your broken heart tom.