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Go away from my life......
It seem that what i did is same with other, anyone of them can do what i did to you,now i know that, THanks forletting me know, You never serious of loving me, playing me, hurting me. NOw i can really understand that.

You are the one who teach me no mercy again, i will remember what yo teach me, what people do for you is non- of your buiness. and you dint ask for that, just remember what myself want. I am too stupid all the time which i want to live with you. NOw i know how big the different is. I will never never never smile, and happy because i wont feel good with everyone anymore, unless myself. I hate all people in this world...........

IS this real?

The season in which the powdered snow dances always passes by
Even if I’m lost in a crowd I can see the same sky
Even though I'm chilled as if I'm being blown by the wind

I don't know anything about you, do I?
And yet, I found you amongst 1 hundred million people
There's no (scientific) basis for this, but I believe this with all seriousness

We can't live at the same time without trivial fights
If I can't be honest, then rapture and sorrow are meaningless

Powdered snow, if you paled me white to the heart
Can you share our loneliness?

I pressed my ear against your heart
Going gently, deeply towards where the sound (is coming from)
(That's where) I want to disembark,
There, we'll meet once again

I want us to reach rapport but I was the (only) one who touched its surface
The only thing that was holding us together was my hand squeezing yours that was numb with cold
Powdered snow, in front (of us), eternity, too fragilely, becomes a stain upon rough asphalt

Powdered snow, this heart that has transcended time is faltering
And yet, I want to continue to protect you

Powdered snow, if you paled me white to the heart
You would wrap around our loneliness and send it back into the sky



IS this real? the snow inside me is cold and heartless now.

NEver show mercy

Now only i understand and know, what i did is stupid, and is same with what everyone can did to you, is just the same. and what i give up is because all myself, you did ask for it, I force you, everything is because of me, me, me and me. NOw i know i am too good to be bully. There will be no mercy from me all the way down, i wont and will not love you anymore, there will be the end for me i just dont want to care anymore for everyone, die or not is up to you all. Is better for me to to get away from you.
THanks for letting me know and what you said, I will remember........

Night that remind me

I really really miss you, after all the night all the night, it look the same, i cant feel anything anymore, I am cold inside, and dark inside, there nothing really can make me smile, letting you go is all the best for you, since you are not loving me anymore from the very beginning, i know that i must do something to let you learn the most important of life and also i going to what i chase. IF you really love me, i wold like to have a chance to save it, before i move to oversea, hope you can wait me. I really want to live with you, But that all only what i hope, i asking myself will i success, will i take what i want, giving a good good life to you? Is that really not worth for you, to understand me, know what i want? is that really not important for you, that i am the one? My life, everything i want is to be with you, with my success, but that all only talk, and dream, will it come true one day? i leaving soon, will you start a new life with me? I hope you can still remember all of us, the night of tonight will bring me to you?

The night of night

The night is long and cold. I cant fall alseep again and again, this kind of situation once disappear but now it coming back.
Taking advantage from you betray you, hurt you, not deserve love from you, all this thing i saw from what you write. Saying thanks to those who hurt you, so mean to you.... It look like only I am wrong there.
Yea i only know how to hurt you, i only know betray you, i the one not deserved your love. Misunderstand you. All is my fault......... You only think for your own. You dont even try to understand, Only know what you do is right, what u think is mature.

All the way there, i do all my best, teach you all i know, share with you all my thing, i never keep anything or not want to help you, you HAVE any problem i am the first one come to help. I keep putting you the first one. I know what i doing. You maybe only think of how and how bad i am, like a evil man.

I try to help you with all i have, teaching you the real world look like hoping one day you will know how it look like. But what i did what i do is just a waste. I know you think i am not mature, always like a kid. But HONESTLY do you really know what i think and what i want? UNderstand me? ASk yourself what you know about me? what i want? i always do what u want what you hope. Anything was passed. You wont understand me, is good for you to keep think i am bad and hurting you, think back is who hurting who, remind all the passed then you will know how hurt am i. I wont blame anything, i wont blame for other, i just want to love myself more. Just like what you always did. I dont want to think for other anymore, is just making me suffer.

Enjoy the long night with your broken heart tom.

One litter tears

Watched again the last episode of it, which teached me alot, seeing the one we love suffer and we can do nothing to help her, it cause me litter tears again. That really remind me what am i now. I cant do anything i so small what i want is still far from now. The world is not that easy, I also want to live happily but i got too many burden to carry, why i cant think like other, simply and happy. Why i must think for other not myself? Why?

What should I do with my life?

There's not only sweet sweet love during young, because now sweet later suffer.
If that day i dint decide it, i am sure my future will cause a big problem to me and to her.


To preserve a man alive in the midst of so many chances and hostilities, is as great a miracle as to create him. ~Jeremy Taylor