could it be?

Today, should i remember?
IS there anything that worth for me? why i feel so dam down?
Just finished watching Pokemon but it dint cure me anything, what i suppose to do?
Brain stuck at thinking English essay topic and introduction. who can help me with it?
At last i know there are no one else.

I just realize that one of my friend having a same and familiar name which same with you,
a name that i dint pronouns or read for a long time, the dam nice and meaningful words,
It remind me a lot of thing, which i though i can forget about.

诗韵, this is the word that once i feel bright and love with, i.......
It is so dam 巧 that the name is the same, Are you kidding me. or you are playing me,
GOD......

I dont really worry about my installation because i know i can handle it well, but come to the paper part, somehow like run out of idea and also dont know how or where to start, my critical thinking is still not that strong perhaps,
I want to learn more to strengthen my weakness, ONce again.....
There will be a good good night for me and also a emo night for me, is good that they dont notice that i emo now.

Life on earth are short, make everyday of your life beauty, so that your journal on the earth are meaningful. Good luck and cheer up thomas....

can i grab the balloon?



Walking alone in the path?

Where am I

It had been so long time, to forget and also to start a new life. This is what i suppose to be or suppose to do. Get recover and also get well. I should be in this way, but until now only i know i am not. I keep on remind about you, every single thing that i do it remind me about you, why i so fail about this. Recently one of my friend did something that really look like you, i keep on recall the memory that i want to forget, and i know that is my fault. Making her in this bad situation, i know i not suppose to get down, but it come too fast, just one sec of look to her, it come. WHy i so fail, WTF!!!!

What i need to do? i not good in explain myself to other, what i can do? sure will get worse when i want to explain, cause i dont know how. I just can say so so so sorry... T_T

JUst hopE eVERthing will get well soon.

如果有一天

我变得没心没肺了

请记得

我曾经也善良过 ...

如果有一天

我变得更冷漠了

请记得

我曾经要人陪的时候你都只说忙...

如果有一天

我变得目中无人了

请记得

曾经也没有人把我放在心里...

如果有一天

我不再在乎你了

请记得

曾经也没人听过我的心事 ...

如果有一天

我不再对你笑了

请记得

你曾经也没有问我过的快不快乐...

如果有一天

我不再关心你了

请记得

一直以来我也是一个人哭一个人笑 ...

如果有一天

我对一切都绝望了

请记得

曾经是你一直让我失望...

如果有一天

你讥讽我的颓废

请记得

从曾经的单纯到现在的做作

我经历了怎样的疲惫...

如果有一天

你都可悲我的堕落

请记得

从曾经到现在也只有我自己在乎自己 ...

如果有一天

我变的不再单纯不再天真

请记得

从前就是因为我的单纯天真而总是伤痕累累...

如果有一天

如果真的有一天我真的变坏了变堕落了

请你们一定要记得我曾经也善良过 ...

when it last

Finally i done with all my works and thing. Waiting holiday and going back to my hometown. I am sure they miss me a lot. Today i get back the staff from HER. Every single thing i had with her was deleted soon and enough. I used to be who i am now. I can be like what i were all the time.

Holiday should be happy, but i feel empty with it, i feel like nothing to do, although i know there's something i need to complete.How i passed my sem break previous. It so blur, which i only focus on her. Haha... sound so ridiculous to me. I can passed these day and i dont know how... Now i want to focus on my work and step a front move to ensure everything of mine was well done.

What passed doesnt mean end, I have my own path, so do her. So what can i said is good luck to her and be strong. Like what always be.

For the last time i want to say: SOrry, thank you and I LOVE YOU..............
All this i will keep in my deep heart forever and ever, there will be the last time i talk to you and will be the last time i meet you.

The night is still young and i want to enjoy it now, so see you later my lovely blog.
LEts rock and Roll.... .>> ....

God damit. Finally..............

GOd dammit. i finally finished all the work, and feeling good now, cause holiday waiting me. Alot i want to do. First i want to get back all my best friend, they sure miss me a lot. haha... ><
Second i want to say goodbye to someone, and get back my stuff. But i want to thanks her also, for letting me know what i want and get back what i am. Thanks .... (H)....
WEee... i going to relax and move on to more on my world, which i plan for myself.
I said before i wont go for relationship anymore after Her. Relationship is nothing for me now, just getting pain... ><'
I want many many many thing, and i want to buy new phone, but waiting to the iphone 5.. @@
i want buy new cloth and throw away all the old one, most important one is i want to throw away all the thing related to her, those only make me feel bad. I want a new start, i dont want to fall into same thing again, relationship is suck..<.<

Hehe.. waiting to hand up my work,.. wakaka,..... >< Sing K, bowling, movie, pool, i coming later.. whahahaahaha.... ><

Rushing is hell

God dam it.. I am rushing my work like hell.. gonna finish all by today.. is that possible?? i havent wash all the pic and also all the work.. wtf is too rush....
is tired like no once before... can i rest after monday? is free after that i think. I am going back that day to mety you up. lOng time i dint go and pray for you. Already 2 years. I am used to it with what i am now, thanks to those who accompany me for so long in this period. Thanks.

I will success in my own way, the 1st to go with is i wanted to passed my takafu. That is the most hardest test i never face. Hope i will success.

I hope you can understand me and i love you..

Forgetable

Finally ended the harry potter.... watched just now... IS good to see it come to the end....
Want to do something but cant figure what to do... I think is best for me to go out again.. ==
I want more and more and more...
Dam suck if continues like this.
Work should take all my time... xD

Having a weird feel, but i dont know what is it.
Few more day to come which i wont forget, the day you went away.
So fast it come to the 2nd years. Time passed so fast and many changes happen.
We call this life, changing every sec.
Alice, how are you up there? THink back the timewe had togather, it remember me alot of happiness and our small dream.

I still remember that my dream is to have my own business and giving my love a wonderful life, yours is stay at home and waiting your man to come back, prepare everything to him. That time our thinking is really chill...
THe dream of mine is still the same.
I think you know that i had a gf (Hxxx) before, this time i go serious with her, making me think a lot. I realize that life is not that easy, I know what do LOVE really mean, when it come out from a man mouth. i am not a puppy love to her. I rather to be like that so i wont have to suffer so long and cause a lot of problem to other. I know how weight is the word I love you. It mean a lot, something that related to my dream.

Who will understand this? Who really think about what life really is, how important is life?
When i fall in love i feel like, love is the most powerful thing that can make many miracle with the one you love, but too bad it is not, When you have to choose between ambition and love, that is the most harder part ever.

Once i feel bad when she said me finding excuse to defend myself, but lastly i dont care it anymore, she dont really understand how i look the world. Is good that she dont love me, cause i can go futhur and become a success man. Last but not least, i just want to say the last word to her when have chance, The last and only word i will said.

Having a good night to myself, i am better than passed. Recall from passed made me happy.