Everything going to be normal soon

My mood going down and down and down..
Even my best friend ask me why, i also cant told him......
something that related to myself are that Fxxx.....
On that time i dont know how what to do.
I break with phoebe, cos i know that in my heart there cant accept anyone....
No more 2nd place for anyone....
Now only i know that she that important to me.....


I feel sry to one of my friend, Zih wei....
She are the unlucky one and get scold by me on thursday.
That day i dam emo and angry because there some Fxxx people come and lure me.....
Too bad that zih wei said something wrong and make me even more worst... and i hate about what she said to me on that time....
She always say i am like this de lo...
what original of herself...
She accidentally hurt me....
Talking too straight without using the brain.....
and nonsence are coming out from her...
I said i will forgive her if she make me happy...
NOw she did make me happy.... i can feel it right now.. ^^ thx ya....


I will forget anything that happen... chear up ba....
Thomas u still have a long long way to walk.... JIayou. Jiayou......
And thanks for eveyone that care about me at the period.. .thx....

happening...

Finally...
our relatioship...
END.....


Lastly i get myself free...
i am not ready enough...
for other relationship...............
I felt sry to her.. cos i still can forget about her.....
even i think new relationship can help me forget her...
BUt it cant...


even she not at here anymore.. but she will alaways live in my heart..
no longer in the earth but in my heart....
psps la....


now i only hope i can focus in my study and then do more in my work.....
i dont want to think about this anymore..
Emo-ing...


bo mood to do it also le la..

express......

God..
what happen to me...
what had u did to my fate....
why i so unlucky this few month....
HOw i can express my feeling.... .... .... ... .. .
HOw can i tell my story to??
what can i do to make myself feel more bettter??



Problem come to me without stopping..
so annoying..
that wat my life is since i come to KL....
when start study.....
all bad thing come along me....
but the most is i lost myself.. .... .. .



......................... LOST MYSELF......................................


I start to think is there any problem occur between me and her..?
just fell like want go back to single....
and focus in my study.. .
but i cant.... there always have problem pop up and make me fell teribble...
Couple is that important?
cant we live without that.?
Is that my fault?


Why she always complain about time??
why she always say i dont spend time on her?
why she always act like that....

And the main problem is.. i still cant forget about "her"
no one can replace her in my heart.....
but too bad she already not at here anymore......
i missing her so much but i cant see her forever......
only can dream about her.....
I still remember the last movement we have togather before u leave me.....
i will always remember that.......


Sry i cant wrote anymore... cos..............
i mad now...

The thing i see now...

Hai..
I feel myself so useless la...
today many bad and problem thing happen and i cant solve it...
even solve but the ending also not that good as i tough...
like today... i say a GIRL brainless cos i really fell that way..
but she hate me now.. i try to say sorry but not that good.. although she forgive me....
what is suppose to do......


Before i come to here... i just feel like i can see through all ppl heart..
but now..
i know i cant...
there is a lot of type of ppl in this world...
even with some wired attitude u haven meet before....
DAM SCARY...!!!!!!!!

BUt something i am glad is about my course.. i want to have a lot more to do with my education..
I am doing something that i like and love.....
I know the path i choose is right and i wont regret about it....
Try to think this way that i am doing something that i really want to and will give me hope and future....
A VERY BRIGHT FUTURE..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beside, i also start to do alot of research about art and design even with the program...
notes, history...
i start to like and
put more effort in it.. cos .....
i know that i doing something right...
i am no longer live for other in the pass....
always have to listen to my parent decision......
NOw i get what i want... that is be myself...
study in the field i love,,,
make use to it,,,
workingon it...
changing myself...
And.....
FInally.......

I get MORE and MORE and MORE and MORE happy.....
that what i want for long time.......



I think today i will stop here and cont with my work ba or relax my brain..
use too much le..
to think....
BB and night all....

M
U
C
K
S

^^#

Away fro home

So fast i away from my hometown and also my lovely bed... MIss it leh..
It have been my 2nd day at college..
still under the orentation week...
thats abit BORING!!!1 but at least i start to known more about my course and
more comfident about the course it going to study at....
NOw i stay with a group of senior which are taking diploma and degree in interor design and graphic design...
They are good guys and help me alot..
^^
what going to me is next week
cos the course and work are going to come.. haha....
Waiting it.. all the movement..
And also i want to do and do and do..... all my art workk cos i like and love it.
Today having some project with my senior and is fun.. just they are too pro.. or can say GENG!!!!
Haha... someday i can be like them lol...
But now is dam free and i want to see how much work i will get in next week...
come ba homework..
Slowly i can get away from game le..
cos i belive i dont have much time to play cos the Work GIven.. ^^
TONS of work... i waiting for it.. :P
Mamamia..... Come come ba lets wait next week and see...
i sure can go through all the work and assignmrnt... cos i am PRO... :P
JOkeing la... not pro lol...
T_T....


Jyjy ba... and good luck to all ppl...
Me will stay up with the blog.. to lete u all know my latest info..
^^#

Only for ME

st i have to say thanks for them that wish me all the time since they know it..
(NO need mention what is that)

LOL... what happen to me this few day is tired eh.
1st i have to go renew my ic.
haixz...
then all my relative come to my house,
make me more DULAN...
They make my house dirty and the
small kid naughty like HELL~~
Always touch my thing and disturb me..
Wu~~~~

I going to enjoy my college life next month...
Time pass so fast. From begining till now...
Many thing happen and many thing change..
dont know why this month a lot of my friend break up with their partner of life...
Do it happen to me,....
NO!!!!! i dont hope so...

NOw only left the most sweet one is kai wei lol... ( the sei poh)
Always ask ppl go yak si one..
LOL!!!
For me coem and go is not a bad thing nor a good thing...
Cos i know i can handle it peacefuly...


Haixz...


What i suppose to do.. I have a lot to
say....
But i dont who i can find??
Blog?
The answer is NO!!!
i want to find someone that can hear and share with me....
Last time got one geh...
But now she ada kekasih tak ada kawan...
She know who i sayin gone...
Kai wei right anot ar??
Haha.....


Growth till this age already..
18 jor...
What the aim i need?
What future?
What life?
There a lot of question appear in my brain, thinking....
NOn- stop.
I want to make a different..
I know if i can over it..
my life wil be colourful..
One step...
Just one step....
But it hard to make....

Come on thomas U can do it... Come on!!!!!!


LOL... what i doing?
cheering myself?
Yea LOL..
^^#
Funny...
:P

Just like what daryl do.. Close the blog
re-open when the host find
about his true life??
I wont do as same as him..
cos i know blog is somewhere we post up our felling
SO daryl dont close it...
Just show out u feeling so that we can help u out and
know about u news....
Remember ya... :P


There is a lot to share but i lazy to do it..
Later got ppl complain that is too long.
So i choose the main one...
some one that LOok-ing for Future Pls work hard and
Wish u all can do it right NOW and Right HERE!!!!!


..........................................................................................................................................................................
Searching for what u need?
Work for that..
At last u will receive what u hope and need FOR!

What i did this days

As you all know
that i will start my college life
at july.
I just play maple to waste my bore time at home and sometime hang out with my firned...
Even now i also dont know what
i need to do... lolz... next week going to have a AIA exam... But i sure i can do it..

New Friend

Oh yea... i just have a new friend name Yuki from
maple.. ><

She is someone that give me a kind of friendly feel...

Must be a good friend to have...
She very kind and i enjoy my time with her in maple...
we skype and chat alot.. just like all my other firned.



And i have a sceret that finally open today...
That is the realationship between Phoebe and me...
our relation run up with 1 month le,...
stable ni let other know.. lolz...
Paisi woh... @@