Now

Long time dint update my blog le.
Do not know why suddenly got the mood to write something.
Maybe people call this relaxing, before continue with your journey or work.
Ton of things happen between this month.
Relationship, family, friendship.. All became so complicated and messy... emotional effected.....
Lucky do not have holyshit....
Haha.. Joking joking.

Sem 2 started, and it already 3 week passed. What i had done? so blur about it.
Project, assignment, class, drawing, all come to me non-stop...
Where have i been?
Why they look so familiar to me?
Do i really lost myself, feeling so lazy and hopeless....
Please give me the feel again.. The feel and willing to achieve what i want, what i hope it to be from the beginning.....
Already understand human have many side, good or bad, it just a matter what they want to be, either
good side or bad side...
Be aware about those human side my dear,
Be careful those people with bad side, they will do something to hurt you, causing you trap into a bad and cruel situation.

Although bad person we need to pay attention on them, BUT those people with good side,
we have to pay full attention on them..
Why i say so??
Because there are some people acting so dam holy good in front of you,
but when you turn behind,
he will start talking bad about you just behind you....
So we have to set a tall wall around us, for protecting us,
prevent us from getting hurt and injured.
If i can choose i will not hope it turn into this situation.
cause i want to be friendly and kind,
Do not want any fake facing around me and my friend, and of cause my DEAR.....
It is dam tired to wear a mask and be friend to other...
I dislike this, Hate it, Dam it, Fxxx it.......

I miss my DEAR, so much!!!
When only i can see her every second??
For me, she is everything for me, i cannot imagine that my world without her..
Something that i am sure....
My world will not warm,
my world will not breath,
my world will not growth,
my live would not last long......
My dear i love you.....
Really, really ,really,
LOVE YOU................

My dear ar!! i know u feel so stress about homework,
do not worry about it,
plan before goes....
that will be the smartest way to release stress and pressure....
Do not panic and scare about the completion of your work,
cause you can make it,
Trust yourself and me...
I will always be there for you.
I miss you!!!

Have to go and do my homework now,
goodbye my blog,
i will update you when i free...
bye and take care all...

I love you

Already one day i came back..
My dearest sister food poisoning and sent to hospital...
My love hweh, phone bil 188+, i am sorry about that...
Lots of thing happen...

I really hope i can pass this with my dear..
Selfish la me...
want this want that.. all also cant get in the end...
Haixz...
Dear, i want u to know that this,
no matter how hard how dark is the path, we will walk through togather,.
I love u ~~~~~

High School Musical 2 - You are the music in me

You are the music in me.. (zihweh)

Lyrics to You Are The Music In Me :
Na na na na
Na na na na yeah
You are the music in me
You know the words
"Once Upon A Time"
Make you listen?
There's a reason.
When you dream there's a chance you'll find
A little laughter
or happy ever after
your harmony to the melody
It's echoing inside my head
A single voice (Single voice)
Above the noise
And like a common thread
Hmm, you're pulling me
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong
Oh, you are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
Because you are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh)
Na na na na na
Yeah yeah yeah
(Na na na na)
You are the music in me
It's like I knew you before we met (Before we met)
Can't explain it (Ohh ohh)
There's no name for it (No name for it)
I'm saying words I never said
And it was easy (So easy)
Because you see the real me (I see)
As I am You understand
And that's more than I've ever known
To hear your voice (Hear your voice)
Above the noise (Ohh ohh)
And no, I'm not alone
Oh you're singing to me (Ohh yeah)
When I hear my favorite song
I know that we belong (Yeah ohh)
You are the music in me
It's living in all of us
And it's brought us here because
You are the music in me
Together we're gonna sing (Yeah)
We got the power to sing what we feel (What we feel)
Connected and real
Can't keep it all inside (Ohh)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Yeah yeah yeah (Na na na na)
You are the music in me (In me)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me
When I hear my favorite song (Favorite song)
I know that we belong (We belong)
You are the music in me
Yeah it's living in all of us
It's brought us here because (Here because)
You are the music in me
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na (Ohh yeah)
Na na na na
You are the music in me (Yeah)

Term and condition

Sem break started now, and i am going back to my origin place,
the place where i came from, the place which belong to me, the place where i well known........
Many people say that good to have a break, but it's too long.....
I am going to miss all my classmate, roommate, of cause the ways how i pass my days in here....
Even though it is tiring but i enjoy it well, because that what i hope to,
be come a DESIGNER....

Everything going well, but it not as good as i though,
Yea, many people think that sem break is fun,
think that, how good there is,
after a 3 month college life, rushing project, works, pop quiz, essay, assignment.....
But sem break cause me not feeling that good,
because, i gonna separated with her,
the one who i met in here, my love....
.................... ZIHWEH.........................................
I really hope that i can bring her with me,
but it cant.............
Maybe that is a good experience, one month unable to meet will make our love more strong, trustful......
This recall me back, on the day we met.
We keep argue, fighting and scolding each other,
at the end it turn to this ending,
............Lovely Couple....................
I am glad to have you as my partner,
U really make me happy, melt the frozen heart in me.
I know there still some argument between us because various thing, every time it turn up like a bonding that make our relation more closed.. Dont you think it?
Maybe our connecting way is argue. xD
Haha... it sound wired to other, but we know that it is real.. right my dear?
So hope that u can be with me all the time,
i am selfish right, i know about that. But i cant stop thinking you,
all my mind , body, heart, also want to hear your voice..
one month will pass dam fast, after that i will return and continue the study, but most important that i can meet with my LOVE...... I will miss her so much,....................... within the break time....
..................................Hweh.............................
............I........
.......................LOVE......................
........................YOU................................
...........................()()()()()()()()()()().................

I do plan what i want and what i should do during the sem break....
I want to own a DSLR camera.. So i plan to work with my dad or other people to save money for that... I also want to save some money to the cameran trip at the end of December...
Cant wait for that time, because she will going with me..
~~~~~~ weee~~~~~~
That is our first trip after coupling.
~~~~~~~~~~~~Excited~~~~~~~~~~~
I know she don't want to ask money from her farther, but i will save money for her.. cause this is what i can do for her...
Save money and we spend in there... wahaha,....
I want to bring you to a restaurant which famous with his lamb chop..
It really taste like western one.
If i am not wrong it taste is from French.
Haha.. i want to go go go and go...XD it will be fun for us....
Waiting the day to come... I want to bring you go around cameran highland.


After the big plan for money....
For sure i will hang out with all my primary and secondary schoolmate...
Wooo~~~
that will be fun... Man i miss u all a lot..
The way we hang out till mid night, going here and there.
Enjoy our Dota game... and screaming in the CC....
Dam miss that.... Wahaha................
thinking of this, she came into my mind, i wish i can bring her hang out and meet with you guys...
Cause she is the one i love, i want to intro to you all.... so that she can join us with the Fun....
Zihweh if u have chance,
you should meet with them...
you should feel the environment that i used to be when i still a kid..
.....hehe....
~~~~~~ All i also want to relate with you~~~~~
to let you know more about me..... feel the way i live in previous......
I want you to know,
what build up my characteristic.....
Why i can become like this,
what make me behave like this.....
where i learn the skill and own the character like what i am now....
How i used to be and learn from the other......
All the positive value and strength, and soul i get from.... I want you to know and absorb it.....
It will cause you a golden life if u really get the message from it.....
Hehe...... so long gas hor... My dear......

Dear i going to miss u.....
Distance will not be a rock or trick that can make our love poor...
Trust me, if there is true love in us,
nothing will make us apart....
Only will increase the love between us, although i know that our love is max now, but it will over the max point,
become ...................
~~~~~~~~~~~~~UNlIMITED~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I will up to date my blog to let you know what happen to me.. my dear......
you Too... have to update your blog to let me know what happening to you too....
I love u my dear.. really love u....
Make sure you use your time well ya....
make it as meaningful as you can... haha......
I miss you....
but i will prove to you, that i am right, i am glad that today can have a good talk with you at my house, with typing.. @@
that nice... really love it...

I promise i will give u a call everyday..
No because u ask to,
Is because i want to hear you voice.....
So that i know you are safe and healthy.....
dear, wait i come back ba................
It wont take so long time, because my soul and heart will accompany you all the time, lonely will pay his back to you, because you have me, this man who can give u warm and love.....


~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~I l0Ve YoU~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Thing to keep and Promises

I am happy.. I know that our relationship will go, go, go, and going till the end. I am confident with it. Together we can solve a lot of problem.. there does matter what we also can go through it.
So how i saw, what suppose and what not suppose to do, i notice that they are wrong, we can do it, Only if we have the strength to face it. ONLY THOSE scare to face it, will say that not suppose to do...
A selfish action.
Dam hate that, because scare then cant do.
SELFISH!!!!! Selfish!!!!! selfish!!!!!!!!!!!
Lucky i am not one of them,
i know where i can go, i know my own power, strength and mostly my heart.
Refer back, those great master teaching, i dam agree with them.
人的一生不能为了害怕而放弃或不敢为自己的理想，梦想，希望而奋斗....
As what we can see, hear, touch, feel,
all this are the best best best weapon that god give to us.
With those power we can rule over the world,
with that we can see how and why some people can success in this 强者存，软者亡，的世界里.
If not strong enough, we will eaten by those who stronger than us.
Gather as much strength as u can from now, cause sooner u will need it.
The strength in here i refer to knowledge.
That only the key that can open the treasure box to get what u need,
the treasure that u obtain can make all u wish come true.
Is that begin greedy the best?
Money act like god and ghost in here..
we need it but cant too many, if not we cant control it.
Anyway, that not a matter, money or empty. Cause , i will earn it my own.
Just for my love to have a better life and happy.


Lyrics to Can I Have This Dance :
[Gabriella]
Take my hand, take a breath
Pull me close and take one step
Keep your eyes locked on mine,
And let the music be your guide.

[Troy, Gabriella]
Won't you promise me (now won't you promise me, that you'll never forget)
We'll keep dancing (to keep dancing) wherever we go next

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Troy]
Take my hand, I'll take the lead
And every turn will be safe with me
Don't be afraid, afraid to fall
You know I'll catch you threw it all

[Troy, Gabriella]
And you can't keep us apart (even a thousand miles, can't keep us apart)
'Cause my heart is (cause my heart is) wherever you are

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

[Gabriella And Troy]
Oh no mountains too high enough, oceans too wide
'Cause together or not, our dance won't stop
Let it rain, let it pour
What we have is worth fighting for
You know I believe, that we were meant to be

(chorus)
It's like catching lightning the chances of finding someone like you (like you)
It's one in a million, the chances of feeling the way we do (way we do)
And with every step together, we just keep on getting better
So can I have this dance (can I have this dance)
Can I have this dance

Can I have this dance
Can I have this dance

this song lyric i dam like.
I hope my love zihweh see it and feel it.
Understand the meaning of the song,
Cause that what i want to say to her.
Say i love u, is too common
Useless with just saying using a mouth,
I will only prove that with action,
That what i will show to her, My love zihweh.
Say is not wrong but have to go with action,
not just saying air, with all fake lie.
Lastly i want to say again................................................................................................................................................
~Zihweh I love You~

The day before tomorrow

Finally, i am backt to KL le...
Is a new time to continue my fight to what i dream, what i hope it to be.
Nth much to say.. cos the big day waiting...
need more strength for it, we~~~~~

Miss her but can see her tmr...
i love u....
muacks...


Forever and ever my dear zihweh...

最近

最经真的有喜有悲......
很多问题都无法确决，很怪她好像变成了另一个人.....
平日的她不是这样子的，让我确的很陌生。
为什麽她会变成这样呢！
很可怕，好怕她会离开我。

所为喜就是我可以回到家乡，感受到家庭的温软。
可以和朋友见面。 好怀念和他们一起玩的日子.....
还有很多很多的事可以办...
每次和她说电话后，都感觉很幸福很开心。
每次和她讲电话时我都会很傻，一直都不知道自己在说什麽.... 好奇怪哦！！！！！！
她让我的人生充满了色彩，也让我知道她的重要性。
爱她是我的荣幸,我说过要守护她一辈子，我一定做到，我愿意为她牺牲我的一切，包括我的性命，永不后悔。
爱上她更让我明白人不能活在过去，因为美好的事往往都会出现在明天.....

终于，在昨天她和她的朋友出去之后，
领悟到一些恋爱的事，
但我不喜欢她的那些朋友，因为她门的话表面上是很有道理，但那是个人的经验，更不能以那一些经验来判断一切。真是以“一石击万鸟”
她问了我很多问题，我很喜欢，因为她不像是那种直接的人，因为她太单纯了。
但是，在那么多的问题里，我决的最有意义的是当她问我，
一段爱情能够达上 4-5 年是因为有性行为，如果没有的话，那段爱情很快的就会结束。
这问题我重复的想过，会发生在我们身上吗？
如果她愿意跟我“做”的话那我会要吗？
我反复的想，最后我终于知道，那些事不会发生在我们身上，因为，
我爱她，不是因为性，而是心。



到最后，我知道问题都一解决了。
她还是她，那个一直爱我的她，一点也没变。
她很容易受到她的那些朋友影响，但她还是一样的相信我......
这也是她的优点。
！！！！！！我爱你！！！！！！

Gotta Go My Own Way - High School Musical 2 (FULL SONG!)

Oo day... xD

Today.. Yes, is today....
I felt so 内疚。。。。。。。。。。。。。。。
Because i leave earlier that her, and that come so sudden.
I know she hate those feeling, just like i adopt her....
she feel so sad about it and i know what she mean..
When she sound like this i know she really care about how i doing to her..
Sry my dear i know that hurt u but i got to go that time...
Really sry. i dont know u will so sad that time and i promise i wont do that anymore..
this the only thing i can do for u...
T_T
really sry about that....


I know everyone in this earth deserve a good treat,
but it always go with what we thought.
Life is like this, always change
although we know the fact but we still hope for more and more and more..
Same as u or me.
we give hope on what we hope for...
sometime it may realise but some time it dont.....
BUT................
if i give up of hope then it will be hopeless, but if we keep on with hope then there a changes.
So dont give up something so easily......

Lost been found.

Dont know why i will that angry when she say i got many boy friend..
even when she say
she was JOKING but i also feel dam dam dam....
..............................................ANGRY.................................
Haixz..... dont know when i become this small gas le..
Where the true of myself be?
So small gas not my style leh..
since when i become like this..
So weak. .....


People say if u really love a person u will feel angry when they say they got many bf.
even that not true or joking.
the one will angry....
very very that kind...
somehow that not call selfish, is call carrying..


当爱一个人，你会很在意她的一举一动。
明知道她是在开玩笑，你都会很生气，不是一般得气....
而是非常，非常，非常的气...........
这种感觉在很久久，曾经消失过哦！！！！


很开心的是，这种感觉回来了！！！
因为我爱她。

Chinese blogging

今天差一点我就和我的爱人子慧吵架，还好没事。
不然，我会后悔一辈子的咯！
无可想像我的人生没有她的日子.......
我知道一对恋人最重要的是坦白， 可是给我一点时间....
我会把我的一切告诉你的...
对不起，我爱你。


人的一身里会为了某种事情而改变...
相信那个人一定是你心爱的人，不然一个人不会无端端的改变自己。
相信我，改变不是一件坏事，重要的是那个人或事值不值让你自己去改变... ><
很明显我的改变一定是为了她，她深深的让我知道人也有第二次的机会和温暖.....
平凡的她，竟然可以点燃我那冰冷的心....
就好像明明中安排好的。
不自不觉的走进了我的世界里
更不可适意的是她很快的就100%融入我的生活里!


曾以为,只要付出真心,努力追求,就会拥有想要的爱情.经过一次伤心和失败才发觉自己的幼稚无知. 爱情不仅仅是需要两颗真心的融合.在爱情的世界里还有显示的那些无奈．爱需要感觉．爱情则需要缘分． 你遇上一个人，你爱他多一点，那么，你始终会失去他。然后，你遇上另一个，他爱你多一点，那么，你早晚会离开他。直到一天，你遇到一个人，你们彼此相爱。终于你明白，所有的寻觅，也有一个过程。 从前的远在天涯，而今的近在咫尺。

我很欣赏这段话， 真真的让一个人了解爱的真真意义。
我一路寻找的爱人，现在就在我的身边了。
我希望我们的爱可以一路平平凡凡的持续下去。
我们的爱是经的起考验的，
所以请让我们证明给他人看吧！！！！！！

在这里我还是想说
只对你说
我爱你！！！！！

Everything going to be normal soon

My mood going down and down and down..
Even my best friend ask me why, i also cant told him......
something that related to myself are that Fxxx.....
On that time i dont know how what to do.
I break with phoebe, cos i know that in my heart there cant accept anyone....
No more 2nd place for anyone....
Now only i know that she that important to me.....


I feel sry to one of my friend, Zih wei....
She are the unlucky one and get scold by me on thursday.
That day i dam emo and angry because there some Fxxx people come and lure me.....
Too bad that zih wei said something wrong and make me even more worst... and i hate about what she said to me on that time....
She always say i am like this de lo...
what original of herself...
She accidentally hurt me....
Talking too straight without using the brain.....
and nonsence are coming out from her...
I said i will forgive her if she make me happy...
NOw she did make me happy.... i can feel it right now.. ^^ thx ya....


I will forget anything that happen... chear up ba....
Thomas u still have a long long way to walk.... JIayou. Jiayou......
And thanks for eveyone that care about me at the period.. .thx....

happening...

Finally...
our relatioship...
END.....


Lastly i get myself free...
i am not ready enough...
for other relationship...............
I felt sry to her.. cos i still can forget about her.....
even i think new relationship can help me forget her...
BUt it cant...


even she not at here anymore.. but she will alaways live in my heart..
no longer in the earth but in my heart....
psps la....


now i only hope i can focus in my study and then do more in my work.....
i dont want to think about this anymore..
Emo-ing...


bo mood to do it also le la..

express......

God..
what happen to me...
what had u did to my fate....
why i so unlucky this few month....
HOw i can express my feeling.... .... .... ... .. .
HOw can i tell my story to??
what can i do to make myself feel more bettter??



Problem come to me without stopping..
so annoying..
that wat my life is since i come to KL....
when start study.....
all bad thing come along me....
but the most is i lost myself.. .... .. .



......................... LOST MYSELF......................................


I start to think is there any problem occur between me and her..?
just fell like want go back to single....
and focus in my study.. .
but i cant.... there always have problem pop up and make me fell teribble...
Couple is that important?
cant we live without that.?
Is that my fault?


Why she always complain about time??
why she always say i dont spend time on her?
why she always act like that....

And the main problem is.. i still cant forget about "her"
no one can replace her in my heart.....
but too bad she already not at here anymore......
i missing her so much but i cant see her forever......
only can dream about her.....
I still remember the last movement we have togather before u leave me.....
i will always remember that.......


Sry i cant wrote anymore... cos..............
i mad now...

The thing i see now...

Hai..
I feel myself so useless la...
today many bad and problem thing happen and i cant solve it...
even solve but the ending also not that good as i tough...
like today... i say a GIRL brainless cos i really fell that way..
but she hate me now.. i try to say sorry but not that good.. although she forgive me....
what is suppose to do......


Before i come to here... i just feel like i can see through all ppl heart..
but now..
i know i cant...
there is a lot of type of ppl in this world...
even with some wired attitude u haven meet before....
DAM SCARY...!!!!!!!!

BUt something i am glad is about my course.. i want to have a lot more to do with my education..
I am doing something that i like and love.....
I know the path i choose is right and i wont regret about it....
Try to think this way that i am doing something that i really want to and will give me hope and future....
A VERY BRIGHT FUTURE..!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Beside, i also start to do alot of research about art and design even with the program...
notes, history...
i start to like and
put more effort in it.. cos .....
i know that i doing something right...
i am no longer live for other in the pass....
always have to listen to my parent decision......
NOw i get what i want... that is be myself...
study in the field i love,,,
make use to it,,,
workingon it...
changing myself...
And.....
FInally.......

I get MORE and MORE and MORE and MORE happy.....
that what i want for long time.......



I think today i will stop here and cont with my work ba or relax my brain..
use too much le..
to think....
BB and night all....

M
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C
K
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Away fro home

So fast i away from my hometown and also my lovely bed... MIss it leh..
It have been my 2nd day at college..
still under the orentation week...
thats abit BORING!!!1 but at least i start to known more about my course and
more comfident about the course it going to study at....
NOw i stay with a group of senior which are taking diploma and degree in interor design and graphic design...
They are good guys and help me alot..
^^
what going to me is next week
cos the course and work are going to come.. haha....
Waiting it.. all the movement..
And also i want to do and do and do..... all my art workk cos i like and love it.
Today having some project with my senior and is fun.. just they are too pro.. or can say GENG!!!!
Haha... someday i can be like them lol...
But now is dam free and i want to see how much work i will get in next week...
come ba homework..
Slowly i can get away from game le..
cos i belive i dont have much time to play cos the Work GIven.. ^^
TONS of work... i waiting for it.. :P
Mamamia..... Come come ba lets wait next week and see...
i sure can go through all the work and assignmrnt... cos i am PRO... :P
JOkeing la... not pro lol...
T_T....


Jyjy ba... and good luck to all ppl...
Me will stay up with the blog.. to lete u all know my latest info..
^^#

Only for ME

st i have to say thanks for them that wish me all the time since they know it..
(NO need mention what is that)

LOL... what happen to me this few day is tired eh.
1st i have to go renew my ic.
haixz...
then all my relative come to my house,
make me more DULAN...
They make my house dirty and the
small kid naughty like HELL~~
Always touch my thing and disturb me..
Wu~~~~

I going to enjoy my college life next month...
Time pass so fast. From begining till now...
Many thing happen and many thing change..
dont know why this month a lot of my friend break up with their partner of life...
Do it happen to me,....
NO!!!!! i dont hope so...

NOw only left the most sweet one is kai wei lol... ( the sei poh)
Always ask ppl go yak si one..
LOL!!!
For me coem and go is not a bad thing nor a good thing...
Cos i know i can handle it peacefuly...


Haixz...


What i suppose to do.. I have a lot to
say....
But i dont who i can find??
Blog?
The answer is NO!!!
i want to find someone that can hear and share with me....
Last time got one geh...
But now she ada kekasih tak ada kawan...
She know who i sayin gone...
Kai wei right anot ar??
Haha.....


Growth till this age already..
18 jor...
What the aim i need?
What future?
What life?
There a lot of question appear in my brain, thinking....
NOn- stop.
I want to make a different..
I know if i can over it..
my life wil be colourful..
One step...
Just one step....
But it hard to make....

Come on thomas U can do it... Come on!!!!!!


LOL... what i doing?
cheering myself?
Yea LOL..
^^#
Funny...
:P

Just like what daryl do.. Close the blog
re-open when the host find
about his true life??
I wont do as same as him..
cos i know blog is somewhere we post up our felling
SO daryl dont close it...
Just show out u feeling so that we can help u out and
know about u news....
Remember ya... :P


There is a lot to share but i lazy to do it..
Later got ppl complain that is too long.
So i choose the main one...
some one that LOok-ing for Future Pls work hard and
Wish u all can do it right NOW and Right HERE!!!!!


..........................................................................................................................................................................
Searching for what u need?
Work for that..
At last u will receive what u hope and need FOR!

What i did this days

As you all know
that i will start my college life
at july.
I just play maple to waste my bore time at home and sometime hang out with my firned...
Even now i also dont know what
i need to do... lolz... next week going to have a AIA exam... But i sure i can do it..

New Friend

Oh yea... i just have a new friend name Yuki from
maple.. ><

She is someone that give me a kind of friendly feel...

Must be a good friend to have...
She very kind and i enjoy my time with her in maple...
we skype and chat alot.. just like all my other firned.



And i have a sceret that finally open today...
That is the realationship between Phoebe and me...
our relation run up with 1 month le,...
stable ni let other know.. lolz...
Paisi woh... @@

My feeling

Haixz.....
What suppose i do to my friend?
watching them leaving one by one.. Feel lonely after seeing them...
since they crazy with me so many year now all at different part of malaysia..
I have to wake up from my dream.. and notice the true side of the world..
I have to belive that this is the time we seperate..
Even i dont
hate leaving but that the fate.... ..
One of my best friend "King kong" Chan juinn hong
going to kampar UTAR tml..
I just can wish him at here..
TAKE CARE!! and
DONT FORGET!!!! ~~ME~~

Maybe for me
i going to KBU international college on july.... ....
So
i got to leave also..
Going to some a part of malaysia..



May GOD bless all my friend that leave for study or work...
Just remember me if u need my help..
Once a friend always the friend...

UPdated lolz....

1st at here i want thanks to all my friend that care and worry about me this few day..
Cos i go hospital.. T_T
and also long time dint write blog le so now i have to continue..
When i at hospital
that is a good time for me thinking.
And i view back my life...
I know and notice a lot for it.
And also i think jor many thing
got positive and negative
haixz.....
sometime i also will knock to the wall and turn back. I know this is hard for me to pass this movement...
Not only i have problem with my attitude
also my action...
I hope i can change it..
I busy with a competition now.
dont know want to go taiwan or not cos
there are two way ..
post there or go there..
xDD
hard to choose.


Beside i also notice that what i need...
sometime i ask back myself is that the decision to be a graphic designer is what i want??
i suspicion myself some time.
So freaking dulan..
I found my own answer with the help of my teacher....
haixz... feel so powerless now a day....
My streangth not enough.
I need more power to do or make my dream
come TRUE!!!!!
I need a lot.. a lot... a lot.....
is this greedy?
I also dont know la...
so tired.
Now i know why human call fam ren....
SO many problem a human have to face.
But i know we can solve it with it..
fate can bechange with our own hand...


My road already set up.
Just wait it to realize....
Erm.. want say geh for today enough le la...


The END................!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

What a busy day~

haixz.... sick jor so many day also onot yet recover eh... and hor i also dont know what happen to my body... dam suck la like that...

HEHHE!!! today go hospital get my report. Luckly not H1N1 and denggi eh.. But hor still feel wired la... haixz...
then my mum bring me to my grandma house use one tradisi geh skill... st use the flour make into a ball shape then rub the body and head... so funny my fever gone eh... and feel better le..... haha... ok la .. say till here... no more energy to type la...

~Today~

For me waht i do all the day is work work and work.. Think that normal for me ar.. and also i dont have time to think about what had happen yesterday.. At the morning i receive a msg from "Her" and the we msg each other. When talk till some where. She suddenly ask me: " IF i be your gf want mou ar??" That time i also dot know what to say.
xDD.....


Then i just say if u want then mai good lolz... And also i told her i want a serious relationship and not " play play " that kind.. Donr know she understand mou ar..
But i dint accept her with some reason.( dont know what pls read the old post)..
And then i mai ask her u play me ar? then she say NO!! =.=!!!

/SWT.. then she say me cute? awa!!! i where got cute Oo?
u know what reason she say me cute??
She said when doing KKJ that time.. Erm.. That time at PLKN NS.. XDDD
when i angry and scolding those "SH". that time i look cute.. =.=!!!
Wah... like that make me nth to say jor.. :P

Haha... so funny hor? But that what happen to me yseterdat eh.. -___-

Now ni think back that it a good memory cos finally got ppl say me CUTE~
hehe.. so syok with it...
Hi cute thomas..~.~

paisah paisah... I know i am CUTE~~~~

Oh yea... This going monday i will go to KL and settle my registration to TOA.. and have to take exam on sport...
scARE~ ScarE~~

But i know i can do it cos it what i must DO oO~~
And i already find a room for rent near my college. I think the place is USJ/9
RM450 a month... No air-con... Shit lolz.... haixz....

" xxx xxx" how u thinking O?? so long ald eh. Still no reply meh?? wait till my neck also long ald lolz....
T_T


Till here for today:P Have a nice day...~~

What a funny day!!!

Today i got to wake up early in the morning and have go "Yam Cha" with my grand parent. After that i drive back and my parent go see houses. Cos they want buy new house le... I slept after went back from breakfast..

Dont know why this morning dam tired.
When i wake up that time already 1.00Pm le.. Shit. I am late
for my badminton training... I faster drive to Ipoh Swimming Club....
But it safe la not like 200KM/Hour....
That really killing lol like that. I am a good driver ma....
I dint have my lunch today eh, I just keep on with my training and dam hungry that time. Until 5 something only i order half dozen Sandwich and eat there with my friend.. Later then i go swimming.. huh... Dam nice swimming after badminton.
But that unlucky thing happen Eh...
That is i lost my car key at there..
Luckly i found it back... that scare me awhile lu~~~

At the same time something funny happen... My PLKN friend Phoebe came to ipoh on Saturday . At night she ask me bring her go "gai gai". then i say ok ar.. But suddenly she sms say cant le.. Cos her father dont let.. I asked why... U know what i get for the answer?????? =.=!!

Her father say:" NO!! because u friend is a boy so i dont allow him to fetch you out.." That time i dont know what respond i want to give. Cause i laughing very loud that time.. Hehe... think back also funny... Now what century jor Oo... Still scare me will eat jor his daughter meh? haha~~~~~`

The the next day she say want me come out and meet her.. I say ok ar.. then i come fetch you.. she say no need woh.. Cos her father only let us lepak In front the padang near her relative house.. Dam shit, I am nota kid la.. Go padang lepak?? ZZz.... really dont know what to say about her father jor.
Mostly ppl go kopitiam or other cafe "Yam cha " and chatting geh but her father dam special.. Go padang one... =.=!!!!! 1St time see tim... But at last i dint go find her cos of my badminton training.. Haha.. and also i only know which "HER" i want....

Today she ( anothe person) say tired to talk woh.. hehe... talk also will tired geh woh.. but dont know why she talk so much today and I think she have to eat more Vitamin so wont get tired easily..:P So hope i can take care her la... ^^#....

Ok la today till here... Dont have any so special... Just a normal day with my joke and fun that come from many thing.... ^^#

Consider a Good Day

~ GOOD DAY FOR ME~

Today i wake up at 8am cos i want
want to go MGS pesta Ria with my kaki and we have
A lot of Fun there. One person spend like RM 100+ there..T_T
dam pain lolz.. But it worth i think, cos the games there were nice and good to play
I win a lot price eh.. The most biggest was the teddy bear... Used jor almost RM20 to play the game only get it geh. Think back many ppl want that teddy bear and only iget it:P HAppy..... ^^# and also hor met alot old friend there lol. And they still kind to me this Botak boy.. =.=!! Spend alot there ar.. The only thing bad was the food... ><


And after that i ask kai wei help me get JJ.Lin geh Sign eh. And she get for me le.. Dam happy.. Agree with what kai wei said.Jj.LIn dam leng zai and Cute.. Just some disapionted that i cant attend it... T_T... Nvm i go genting for the consert..:P That time sure can see the leng zai "gor gor"... They are the almost top acter in TVB..


Today someone play my feeling eh.. BUt nvm i dont blame her or angry with her. Cos she not really know.. But i got a bit unhappy with that... Nvm la now ok le lu~~ She i not dare to angry her la.. She dam dam important for me....


Tonight i go out yam cha with my friend eh.. They come back from study at KL... But i will join them soon cos i going to study there... and now something so fan eh..... My father keep asking me dont give up the scholarship given by " Nan Yang art university" and but i want to say at Kl for HEr.( she know who i mean geh).Hehe i belive i still can be the best although i give up the scholarship for it. Cos i can cont my study at there after 3 year diploma at TOA.... Only wait for the disicion... and the agreement from my parent... :p


Happy day la today consider is....

~Waiting~

Now ni i only know what kind of feel of waiting. Long time ago till now i dint expect to fell it cos no one reject me be4..

No different le... Change ME waiting.

Haixz... No fun eh.. Dam hard to pass the day with it..
Mostly ppl will be happy for waiting the good result,
But for me is not.
From small till now i hate waiting,
Mostly because of my father gua.. He always ask me to wait but at
last he dint fullfil what he say and what he have to do.

I really fell wired and cant even focus in any of my work.
Haixz...
Dont want to talk more la..
Bo mood to write any longer..
@@

~Someone~

Told her le. But she say think think sin wo.. Lucky dont have any problem with it...

haixz.. hope faster can know the result lolz..

Waiting is more suffer eh. T_T

now Me so funny lolz.. now ni know what to do. I though i really like her but at the end Come out anothe her.. @@

Pspsps.... And i know this desicion is a correct one..
Just want to tell her, Thanks you..

When i sad or not happy u always be with me.
no need say a word but u have the power to make me laugh and be happy..
All u did to me that a gift from god cos let me know you.. ^^#

U know who i mean geh...


Nice nice... Her voice dam nice.
If i can hear it everyday that is a most wonderful thing i ever have...
And her behave dam easy make ppl happy and laugh at her..^^

Hao xian wo men ke yi zhai yi qie eh..@@



Just like this pic.. There are many girl in this world but You are the only one that can go into my heart.... Only you can be my "ROSE".




The gift i want to give u is this.. The heart belong to me. Would you like to build you our heart together with me? Haha... Who i asking... Just blogging and no one will reply it.. BUt i hope u can see it and Reply me.....




this is what i want to say. No matter what u be or turn in.. I will still always love you.. the beauty in you wont gone just like that... It will always remain in my heart..



This is what we will do in future if we really together.. i really want to be with you..


Would you like to pass this with me?? A lonely and sot sot geh boy still waiting for the answer....
With a great hope he wait and wait and wait....

"Hao Fan de shi eh"

very long i dint go through this kind of thing le.. NOw i also dont know what i should do... I just know i am confuse now la... What i need to do to prove what my feeling about. She or she? Who i like the most?

Chinese got a nice word best describe this. But i cant typr chinese at here..T

T_T

What for? maybe now only i know who i relly like and who is important for me. Is it too late to make desicion??

haixz... Hao fan ar..@@

If i tell her will she accept me? Cos i know this something will make she run away from me.

I dont want to be like
THIS..

But maybe is too late le ba..

T_T

now only motice realy noob eh.. How come i

BECOME LIKE THIS.

IS that good thing or a bad thing to me . that i also dont know ar.. Just face the fact ba....

but if success then good la. Just scare
FAIL....

What can i do.Only hope it come true...T_T

Action cant prove anything.. Only.







heart with heart. then u will know who one u like the most...

~PLKN life part 2~

Haha.... feel like nothing to do so decide to continue my bloggie. After going pray dam tired but still cant rest without touching the computer. Hehe, wired hor? This is what i am. super IT lover:P Lets cont what the tittle mean ba..^^#


When PLKN i learn a lot of thing that cant be learn from the school. Although alot of thing i have known but i just take it as a revision. At first week i think PLKN life is boring. THis is due to because the first week we dont have much activities to do, just listen to what they say and what we will going to do during the three month. That time dam sien..~ More suffer than u go to study at school.... @.@ And that time my mind influence by my friend, they asking their parent to send them out from the camp with applying any college or university. I told my parent about this too and the also agree with me.. They help me apply any college and finally i get the "Surat tawaran"... But that too late. Erm. wait that should be like this, I am lucky because the letter come late cause if i went off PLKN, It will be a ~HuGe~ Regret in my life... Haixz... just think back that. Thanks GOd it give me this kind of passed life.

After The letter come, at the same time PLKN life start. Many activities come and started. What I can see is a training wait for me to pass through... Mostly i learn alot from "Class CB" in English it mean " Character Building Class". During the class i gain alot of benefit and knowledge with it. From the other classes i learn about other people culture and other knowledge.. YEE~~ It seems like PLKN gave a lot of fun for me... I can SAY:"YUP~~~" PLKN life can say is a change of my life or as a sigh for me or guide for me on what i suppose to do in future....

When PLKN life, You dont have many time to do other stuff like, Time is limited on work , activities, rest and pray... But at night it is a GOLDEN TIME for us to think about what ways we are going to walk. THe path we must go and what we MUST do. Dont know what to say about me, I think i am the lucky one cause i find out my own path, own ways. I know many people in this world DONT KNOW what they want, what they need. With the calculation 85% of people in this world work with doing what they dont like,ONly 15% people doing what they want and like... I dont hope to be the 85% people and i want to be the 15% people... This make me more clear about how far my ability can reach and what i like, what i need to do, what i must do and How i can do it.... Unable to deny that most of the time we cant do what we want, but we can try to get what me want... If we give up like that then you are not able to success in life.... Such easy to give up, mean you are not strong enough to chase for your dream... If we have our dream then no matter what problem we face will can solve it, pass through it. This is what call SUCCESS....

NOt only this i learn. I also learn how to be strong. This much more related to Knowledge. As you all know that knowledge is a powerful weapon and it is one factor that can help us in realise our dream.... That is some thing as golden as gold, NO!!! is more golden than gold. We know that if we dont have knowledge we can out from this world. Dont have knowledge we will kicked out by the other stronger.. In this world... haha... again relate this to mathematics..:P In this world 95% of people working for 5% of people.. This proof that only 5% of people have HUGE knowledge. They can rule over this world with using all their knowledge. So if u want to be part of the 5% of people we have to start from to to gain as much knowledge as we can. It wont be late if we start now cause this world dont have anything late only have lazy people... I think i can be that kind of people and I must be part of them.... So i have to work even more hard today to achieve that. I dont want to be kick off by other. So i also dont hope my friend experience this also.. So i will help them in this so that they wont face thsi cruel fate... Not i want to say it but this world is cruel like that... Only stronger can survive, weaker will be bully. This phenomena we always can see from news. This world are played by all the million-air, we just part of their chest or toys. So if we can get ripped of it we can ba like them too... As a million-air.. this is the hope for most of the people... And that my hope too.... I want to build up my own business and company in the future.. With this point i can pass and go through any problem i face, any hard condition and any hard path. The strenght of myself will proof it some day and get my dream come true...

Beside that I learn how to make a more effective decision in the bad condition. This is a good training for me cause many time we dont know how to make any decision, When u go PLKN life u have to make the decision no matter in what condition... PLKN life lack of a lot of rare material and source so we only can do the best for ourself and for our team.. I think all of us that go through PLKN will experience this... It is a important skill that we need in the future in the world now a day... I can say to be a important factor on the way to success.

That only thing i learn from PLKN. But it very useful to me now..I cant say i get a lot but i can say i am glad to learn it.. Some how i also dont know this skill useful to everyone but i know that is the skill and knowledge i have now and i will good use about it in a proper way...

PLKN memory:

~My PLKN life part 1~

Thrid day blogging le, when i hear a song from my collection, it recall my PLKN life. I also dont know how to express it. Cause it was a amizing thing i passed throgh all along the 3 month. At first i felt suck and keep asking why i selected to NS( Nationl Service). Haixz... that time dam hate PLKN, plus alot of bad fedback from senior that PLKN life suck. I am scare that i not used to it. Then i go ask my parent how and what i need to do to escape from it.:P Dam bad eh.. NO really want to go that time... If that time i give up that will be a big big regret in my life. All long the three month i learn alot of thing and know how to be strong. Not to run away from any problem, or scare to face it. this is what i get during the PLKN life........ >.<....

From the 1st day i land my leg to PLkN Kem Teluk Rubiah i told myself:" YOu can do it,Thomas.." Then my PLKN life started and it go more fun and fun. At there i met up alot of friends and get involve in many activities with all my teamate or friend. A lot of joys we get, cant deny that we have a lot of bad movement too. Some time because of some joking or works made us argue, But after that dont know why suddenly we can gether up and play together again.. That wired la. Maybe this call true friendship ba. At there the most person or friend i remember and treat them like my own family are~:-)

1. Kai Wei
2. Daryl
3. Pui Kuan
4. Chia Hui
5. Wenise
6. JOanna
7. ENg Eng
8. Wan( Big brother)=.=!!
9. Hui Zhen
10.Justin
11.Phoebe
12.Ah. Yip
13.ling ling
14.Wei sing

Our this geng mostly love music and love to take picture. ^^# I must thanks to god because let me know them.. Thanks you. Without them my PLKN life will be dam so BORING!!!! Now i know they already be part of my life le... Is hard to forget them cos it like a beautiful view store in my mind, my Brain!!!
















THis is all my kaki During my PLKN life... Dam miss the time togethr with them.. T_T
Not onlyy those picture i have but my mind or nrain is like a video recorder. I have record and take every movement in it and wont able to delete le.. All this is the best "Memory" in my life.........

Not only this i get from Ns.. Is time to go off le. I will stop till here... Lets continues next day ba... Hope i can have a happy mdream today with this all happy memory.^^#

~Second day Blogging~

Haha.... time pass so fast for me today... And finally i make my decision and choose to study at KL, Subang. Today i passed my time with alot of hard work, and i dint feel tired at all. So wired about it and what i though was i maybe very tired after work and can have a nice sleep. It totally up side down. Haixz... and today i told my "huge" decision to a person, and she is the first person i told. I think she knew who i mention about. Hehe... Dont look down and up la... IS you kai wei. I know u always ask ppl yak sei but for me u really cant replace by someone lolz... Now ni u are important for me lolz... "Stop it" I know this will u say but what i want to say is, "Stop Deny the Fact". Kai wei u dare to own it. ^^#.... Not saying that you are that kind of rude. I know u got "Shan Liang" one side geh. But think about maybe the word u say out may hurt other ppl leh. U dont know ma cos u not the person.. So remeber Oo.. Today look like not much to say maybe cos too new in here and dont know what to typr about.. Haixz... Just find out blogging also got its goodness, that can help us release our tension..... No wonder kai wei love blogging la... Haha... look like she got alot of problem Oo..... Nvm let me solve it together with you ba....( IF u want lolz, No forcing).... Ok.. Now is time to end the blog for today... Tml continues ba..

^^#......

My 1st time on blog...

This is my 1st time on blog so consider a newbie^^#. I open this account for many month but i dint used it till now. I should thank to my friend kai wei. She ask me to write blog and teach me how to use it..( But i know how to use le). Just want to paly on her.. Haixz... that look like dam bad hor.. Hope she wont angry me la... And i am sure she wont lol.. Cause she dam good and sayang me.:P Dont let her see this tim... IF not kill jor me also got... ^^# i will upload more get and the not only 1 nlog a day maybe many gua.. So pay more attendtion on my Blog^^ Kai wei ar kai wei, I think you are the only one that know that much of me, Include my problem and other stuff. Thanks for your help and accompany me lo. ^^# and also hor can u be more soft. Some time you dam rude.. -___-

See this dont angry Oo....

For your own good and mine also.. ^^#