So so so so so Sorry............
I do lie to all of you. Everyone i care i lie to them.
It is a hard process to go through,
I know many problem i have, i keep thinking of what i should do to bring all to you.
MOney, time, life, can I give you that? not only your parent ask me about that, but also myself..
can i really bring all this to you? NO i dont. I still dont know what my future is? How it look like?
When i know this i were so sufffer, what if i cant give u that, what if i am useless?
What if i cant make money and you need to suffer with me? what if?? this all come out in my mind....
I know you want a good life, enjoy everything, no need to stress and think for all. Got a happy life, I also hope you do, but i really dont know i can do that to you anot. I saw many poeple who study my field, design are making poor, and jobless. when i see that i feel so scary, what if i fail, then what will happen to you, all your dream gone, I dont want that to happen.
so i decided to first let you go, so that i can go for my future without bring you with me, plus i do feel so useless to be with you, cause i cant do anything of my own, i too focus on you, yea, u are right, why i cant do anything or i dont want to do anything when be with you, this because i scare you will look into what i really is when i do my thing, i know myself, when i do my work i dont like to be disturb, that why i dint do my work in front of you, i will scold people or i will sound crazy. I hope you understand, But you dint. PLus i do dont like you go with those always make joke on you, i feel like that not respecting you, and me. But you say me small gas and jealous. I just want to protect you but that not what you want. I too care of my own face as well, and you, i dont know you care or not, but that is the true.
I feel so bad and pain when i letting you go, i try to get a second chance with you togather with my future, but you say you dont want anymore, that time , my heart was hurt badly and the words you said is hurting me, that the reason why my tears keep coming out, that time i feel like what i work out is wasted and pointless, all the way...
But that also why i can letting you go without any delay, cause the best to letting me go is hurtting me so that i wont keep thinking on you. So i letting you go peacefully, and hope you can find your happiness that i cant bring to you. I am too selfish, i cant accept you to fail with me, i scare i ccant accept that i cant give you happiness, cant bring you future, cause i also cant see my future clear.
Sad and hurt will gone by time, slowly, even everytime i saw her, i feel not that good, but i will be fine sooner, cause i wont see her soon. I already get the agreement with dad so that i can study oversea, and go for my future with what i plan for.
Thomas you can do it, dont give up, you think mature enough for everything, even i know many people said you are not, but remember what your dad teach you, if you cant bring someone you love to a better life, dont go and spoil her life with your own hand. Thomas i know you are sad and hurt but cheer up, you can do it, give yourself a rest, other poeple dont know nevermind but you do know....... You can make it....... Is hard to forget her, but you can do it, trust in yourself. You did very well le, atleast other people help you care about her, put more love on her, this is what you want right.... Yes it is... I will keep this feeling of love to you deep inside my heart, I wont so easy believe that love can go through everything, that only end up with both suffer in life and poor condition, i dont want the one i love become like this, i want her to life happy..........
THOMAS.. cheer up and dont give up.. act nothing in front of everyone, 吃的苦中苦，方为人上人。 you cant be so selfish to involve her into the future you dont really clear about... SO so so Sorry that i am too 天真 that time.
I am so sorry to everyone i lie and act to, everyone i hurt too. Because of my selfishness.. So sorry.......
Thomas you can do it, dont give up ya..... I know is hard but you can do it..... YEs you can.......
I do lie to all of you. Everyone i care i lie to them.
It is a hard process to go through,
I know many problem i have, i keep thinking of what i should do to bring all to you.
MOney, time, life, can I give you that? not only your parent ask me about that, but also myself..
can i really bring all this to you? NO i dont. I still dont know what my future is? How it look like?
When i know this i were so sufffer, what if i cant give u that, what if i am useless?
What if i cant make money and you need to suffer with me? what if?? this all come out in my mind....
I know you want a good life, enjoy everything, no need to stress and think for all. Got a happy life, I also hope you do, but i really dont know i can do that to you anot. I saw many poeple who study my field, design are making poor, and jobless. when i see that i feel so scary, what if i fail, then what will happen to you, all your dream gone, I dont want that to happen.
so i decided to first let you go, so that i can go for my future without bring you with me, plus i do feel so useless to be with you, cause i cant do anything of my own, i too focus on you, yea, u are right, why i cant do anything or i dont want to do anything when be with you, this because i scare you will look into what i really is when i do my thing, i know myself, when i do my work i dont like to be disturb, that why i dint do my work in front of you, i will scold people or i will sound crazy. I hope you understand, But you dint. PLus i do dont like you go with those always make joke on you, i feel like that not respecting you, and me. But you say me small gas and jealous. I just want to protect you but that not what you want. I too care of my own face as well, and you, i dont know you care or not, but that is the true.
I feel so bad and pain when i letting you go, i try to get a second chance with you togather with my future, but you say you dont want anymore, that time , my heart was hurt badly and the words you said is hurting me, that the reason why my tears keep coming out, that time i feel like what i work out is wasted and pointless, all the way...
But that also why i can letting you go without any delay, cause the best to letting me go is hurtting me so that i wont keep thinking on you. So i letting you go peacefully, and hope you can find your happiness that i cant bring to you. I am too selfish, i cant accept you to fail with me, i scare i ccant accept that i cant give you happiness, cant bring you future, cause i also cant see my future clear.
Sad and hurt will gone by time, slowly, even everytime i saw her, i feel not that good, but i will be fine sooner, cause i wont see her soon. I already get the agreement with dad so that i can study oversea, and go for my future with what i plan for.
Thomas you can do it, dont give up, you think mature enough for everything, even i know many people said you are not, but remember what your dad teach you, if you cant bring someone you love to a better life, dont go and spoil her life with your own hand. Thomas i know you are sad and hurt but cheer up, you can do it, give yourself a rest, other poeple dont know nevermind but you do know....... You can make it....... Is hard to forget her, but you can do it, trust in yourself. You did very well le, atleast other people help you care about her, put more love on her, this is what you want right.... Yes it is... I will keep this feeling of love to you deep inside my heart, I wont so easy believe that love can go through everything, that only end up with both suffer in life and poor condition, i dont want the one i love become like this, i want her to life happy..........
THOMAS.. cheer up and dont give up.. act nothing in front of everyone, 吃的苦中苦，方为人上人。 you cant be so selfish to involve her into the future you dont really clear about... SO so so Sorry that i am too 天真 that time.
I am so sorry to everyone i lie and act to, everyone i hurt too. Because of my selfishness.. So sorry.......
Thomas you can do it, dont give up ya..... I know is hard but you can do it..... YEs you can.......
