God damit. Finally..............

GOd dammit. i finally finished all the work, and feeling good now, cause holiday waiting me. Alot i want to do. First i want to get back all my best friend, they sure miss me a lot. haha... ><
Second i want to say goodbye to someone, and get back my stuff. But i want to thanks her also, for letting me know what i want and get back what i am. Thanks .... (H)....
WEee... i going to relax and move on to more on my world, which i plan for myself.
I said before i wont go for relationship anymore after Her. Relationship is nothing for me now, just getting pain... ><'
I want many many many thing, and i want to buy new phone, but waiting to the iphone 5.. @@
i want buy new cloth and throw away all the old one, most important one is i want to throw away all the thing related to her, those only make me feel bad. I want a new start, i dont want to fall into same thing again, relationship is suck..<.<

Hehe.. waiting to hand up my work,.. wakaka,..... >< Sing K, bowling, movie, pool, i coming later.. whahahaahaha.... ><

Rushing is hell

God dam it.. I am rushing my work like hell.. gonna finish all by today.. is that possible?? i havent wash all the pic and also all the work.. wtf is too rush....
is tired like no once before... can i rest after monday? is free after that i think. I am going back that day to mety you up. lOng time i dint go and pray for you. Already 2 years. I am used to it with what i am now, thanks to those who accompany me for so long in this period. Thanks.

I will success in my own way, the 1st to go with is i wanted to passed my takafu. That is the most hardest test i never face. Hope i will success.

I hope you can understand me and i love you..

Forgetable

Finally ended the harry potter.... watched just now... IS good to see it come to the end....
Want to do something but cant figure what to do... I think is best for me to go out again.. ==
I want more and more and more...
Dam suck if continues like this.
Work should take all my time... xD

Having a weird feel, but i dont know what is it.
Few more day to come which i wont forget, the day you went away.
So fast it come to the 2nd years. Time passed so fast and many changes happen.
We call this life, changing every sec.
Alice, how are you up there? THink back the timewe had togather, it remember me alot of happiness and our small dream.

I still remember that my dream is to have my own business and giving my love a wonderful life, yours is stay at home and waiting your man to come back, prepare everything to him. That time our thinking is really chill...
THe dream of mine is still the same.
I think you know that i had a gf (Hxxx) before, this time i go serious with her, making me think a lot. I realize that life is not that easy, I know what do LOVE really mean, when it come out from a man mouth. i am not a puppy love to her. I rather to be like that so i wont have to suffer so long and cause a lot of problem to other. I know how weight is the word I love you. It mean a lot, something that related to my dream.

Who will understand this? Who really think about what life really is, how important is life?
When i fall in love i feel like, love is the most powerful thing that can make many miracle with the one you love, but too bad it is not, When you have to choose between ambition and love, that is the most harder part ever.

Once i feel bad when she said me finding excuse to defend myself, but lastly i dont care it anymore, she dont really understand how i look the world. Is good that she dont love me, cause i can go futhur and become a success man. Last but not least, i just want to say the last word to her when have chance, The last and only word i will said.

Having a good night to myself, i am better than passed. Recall from passed made me happy.

Weakness

THe presentation finally gone...
Today is the drawing final.... at the same time also the end for the drawing class.....
Seem like the break is coming.
During the presentation, i admire those who get 9.5 marks.
their speaking skill is dam pro and good.
I am going to learn that, if possible during the moral trip i can get close to them.
I choose to believe in human Once more.
Rushing for the last few page of drawing and for the end.
My fate are on my hand, My life in on my hand, not others, MOve move move and move to what you are, what i am...... ..... .....

Ending here

Everthing will end, you will gone from the deep of my heart.
YOu will move away from now, slowly and slowly....
there's nothing i want to remember of you anymore, i will delete and burn everthings that belong to you, i hope this memory will not stay in my mind and my heart.
It wont worth anything, anything is just fake in you and me.
Understand that will give myself a better life, life without you is more than with you. Now i know, i close my world for you, but now i open for everyone i see, not only you, move out by yourself, is time for me to move futhur.

I will happy without you?

Sorry mum

Sry that i dint tell you i take bils to sleep.
Mum sorry.
That the only way i can release my stress and my heart. for a short sleep.
nitz mum i sleep now.

Dont worry, i will survive and fulfill my promise to take care you and the family, i letting hweh go already, dont want to involve her in all. Hope she happy now, mum i want to say sorry again, for the bils.

I love everyone but i hate everyone at the same time...........

GOne

Go away from my life......
It seem that what i did is same with other, anyone of them can do what i did to you,now i know that, THanks forletting me know, You never serious of loving me, playing me, hurting me. NOw i can really understand that.

You are the one who teach me no mercy again, i will remember what yo teach me, what people do for you is non- of your buiness. and you dint ask for that, just remember what myself want. I am too stupid all the time which i want to live with you. NOw i know how big the different is. I will never never never smile, and happy because i wont feel good with everyone anymore, unless myself. I hate all people in this world...........