hmm.. i got to cancel what i do for her for the birthday. hmm... i know is sound like a wasted, but nvm, she got her plan, just hope i wont rugi that much for uncompleted the garden. hmm... haixz... feel so bad dy.. ==

Today is the day which i cry for last, one last time. NO more. Everything that passed mean pass. i wont let myself emo again because of this. I must do it, for myself and also for someone that "maybe" growth with me. I dont know what future is, but with fate and trust, it will be something beautiful. By asking myself what i want is not equal to what i i deserved. what i deserved is equal to what i want. Things will always change, but without planning everything will not start. I started my life with colour, will it end up with colourful or colourless, it just depend on what i do. Life mean something to everyone, so do i. everything that pass sure had it reason, doesnt matter the reason is good or harm, just can see it as a memories or guide, life will be wonderful with some people , at the same time without some people. Depend on how we gonna treat our life and also how we walk out our life. Learning is the best way to build up our life and also the best way to judge our life, giving what we deserved in future.

soon will be the day, how long does it passed? How long does everything gone and how long does everything moved. i WONDER WHAT IS my heart feeling now? Is so complicated, is every human being like this? think so much? or just me? question and question and question. when only i can have the answer. I dont know what to do somehow. I keep on hoping and giving myself a good excuse to move on and become one of the success person. HOw good is we can really forget and dont think about whatever passed. I know that only fairy tail, but i really hope that i can find a true love which can support me and also her. I know that is not that easy or can say out of 100 but now i just want to be with who i love. Can i? Can i? haixz...:(((