Passed that make you strong

It has been some time that i dint visit  my blog, d0nt know why today full of sadness... What happen to my day? I suppose to be very happy, but end up like this. T0day my friend stay at my place, i suppose to be very happy to see her. but don't know why, she shy or what, just  feel funny when looking at her. she make my day fill with some colour, but what makes my day endless? I have no idea, so fast, one year had passed, what i did during this year? Any achievement? hmm... it seem like no, this years is so miserable to me.

What passed had just passed, things end this year will not bring to next year, that what i told myself. It works or not, i dont know, but at least i try my best, I know i am nothing to you anymore, but i just hope the best for you, As a friend if you, i hear a lot of stuff from our friend, and also know your problem, but so sorry that i cant help you with that anymore. Good LUCK!!

Is easy to like other people but is hard to fall in love with other people.. What we had was just like a wave, that will end when there is a block. So what we had is just memories, and also is just a sweet dream. I realize that no matter how much you love a person, in the end no one can guarantee how long you will love the person, because this will changed, until the day you dont like him/her, what you can do is, say GOODBYE!! to him/her.

Doesn't matter what promises or what changes you did, is wont last when it come to the end, all promises is like pieces that will crack with just a blow. IS that weak!!! Never ever make the promises because it wont last that long or it wont make people safe. I used to live in passed, with all the sadness and also all the burden. I wanted to choose the happy way, i know is hard but i will try and wont give up, i only have one chance, and i will grab it.

Is full of source and thinking now. what can i do is to rest and rest, my health is bad now, seriously bad. NOw is the time to ask again, how long can i stand up to? how long...

Sometime changed, something REMAIN the same

since how long i dint blogged?
This few weeks happened alot. until i cant even breath, Staying alone is the best way to cure myself .
Stop bring problem to the others.
The most scariest is not time flow, but is human changes. IT happen even faster than i expected.
Someone go into your heart either giving you a lesson or staying with you until the end.
Does not mean that is a mistake or that was a mistake.
Because we cant even know our future, what we can do is to predict it.
Hoping for the best one.
YOU one goes into my heart but you choose not to stay due to your own reason, i understand and also accepted. same go to me as well, i dont even feel that way to you anymore, what i feel is that you are the GIRL THAT I APPRECIATE!!!!
I will be there for you all the time when you need me. OR when you can lost.

There are many i want to tell, to whom? I dont know, sometime i how god is there to listen to me. I want to ask, why my life is different than other, why must i go through this kind of pain, this kind of lesson? I am tired of tried. Can i have a short break?

My tears already dry up, no more to spare. how long more you want me to sleep with my tears, my nightmare, my broken heart. IS that a punishment for me? Since how long when it started? I cant remember of it anymore. Why dont you just K.O me?

There one of my friend who test me and asked me to promise her not to EMO!! i did it when she is there for me, she is there to give me support, but now she gone, I cant keep the promise anymore. SO sorry.

I understand how life goes. HOw life be. Just i dont understand why must i be fate like this.
Many people said we walk our path, i also want to believe in it, but too bad it just an excuse for those who dont want to believe it. I want to walk my path but how? i want everything goes like what i hope, but how? SO many how? HOw can i get those answer?

Please tell me how. i want to know? I am too small in this world, but i want to make someone feel warm with the only small power i had. To make them feel good with me.

hmm.. i got to cancel what i do for her for the birthday. hmm... i know is sound like a wasted, but nvm, she got her plan, just hope i wont rugi that much for uncompleted the garden. hmm... haixz... feel so bad dy.. ==

Today is the day which i cry for last, one last time. NO more. Everything that passed mean pass. i wont let myself emo again because of this. I must do it, for myself and also for someone that "maybe" growth with me. I dont know what future is, but with fate and trust, it will be something beautiful. By asking myself what i want is not equal to what i i deserved. what i deserved is equal to what i want. Things will always change, but without planning everything will not start. I started my life with colour, will it end up with colourful or colourless, it just depend on what i do. Life mean something to everyone, so do i. everything that pass sure had it reason, doesnt matter the reason is good or harm, just can see it as a memories or guide, life will be wonderful with some people , at the same time without some people. Depend on how we gonna treat our life and also how we walk out our life. Learning is the best way to build up our life and also the best way to judge our life, giving what we deserved in future.

soon will be the day, how long does it passed? How long does everything gone and how long does everything moved. i WONDER WHAT IS my heart feeling now? Is so complicated, is every human being like this? think so much? or just me? question and question and question. when only i can have the answer. I dont know what to do somehow. I keep on hoping and giving myself a good excuse to move on and become one of the success person. HOw good is we can really forget and dont think about whatever passed. I know that only fairy tail, but i really hope that i can find a true love which can support me and also her. I know that is not that easy or can say out of 100 but now i just want to be with who i love. Can i? Can i? haixz...:(((

Rushing work like hell. Facing the dateline pressure, i already told myself have to prepare, but because of the rule and staff, making the time more close. I am worried that we cant finish it, i dont want junk work, i want prefect work.. I wont sleep for this coming two day unless i finish what i want to do. I want to work work work ar.!!!! People say graphic design is easy but i say it was the most difficult one. We need to think think and think with critical mind, work with critical head. WHat we did were bring the msg to public, and have to choose the most easier way... MY mind really tired somehow, what can i figure thing in this stage, train up myself is the best way, i must, no i have to do it, KEep on moving thomas, you can do it. NOthing will causing you to stop, and fall back. YOU got the will, strength and also support to overcome this. Keep on.. THere always got people support you, and the one who you care will support you too... So you must keep it on, and be strong to move move move move..... MOMMO!!!!!

could it be?

Today, should i remember?
IS there anything that worth for me? why i feel so dam down?
Just finished watching Pokemon but it dint cure me anything, what i suppose to do?
Brain stuck at thinking English essay topic and introduction. who can help me with it?
At last i know there are no one else.

I just realize that one of my friend having a same and familiar name which same with you,
a name that i dint pronouns or read for a long time, the dam nice and meaningful words,
It remind me a lot of thing, which i though i can forget about.

诗韵, this is the word that once i feel bright and love with, i.......
It is so dam 巧 that the name is the same, Are you kidding me. or you are playing me,
GOD......

I dont really worry about my installation because i know i can handle it well, but come to the paper part, somehow like run out of idea and also dont know how or where to start, my critical thinking is still not that strong perhaps,
I want to learn more to strengthen my weakness, ONce again.....
There will be a good good night for me and also a emo night for me, is good that they dont notice that i emo now.

Life on earth are short, make everyday of your life beauty, so that your journal on the earth are meaningful. Good luck and cheer up thomas....

can i grab the balloon?



Walking alone in the path?