Sometime changed, something REMAIN the same

since how long i dint blogged?
This few weeks happened alot. until i cant even breath, Staying alone is the best way to cure myself .
Stop bring problem to the others.
The most scariest is not time flow, but is human changes. IT happen even faster than i expected.
Someone go into your heart either giving you a lesson or staying with you until the end.
Does not mean that is a mistake or that was a mistake.
Because we cant even know our future, what we can do is to predict it.
Hoping for the best one.
YOU one goes into my heart but you choose not to stay due to your own reason, i understand and also accepted. same go to me as well, i dont even feel that way to you anymore, what i feel is that you are the GIRL THAT I APPRECIATE!!!!
I will be there for you all the time when you need me. OR when you can lost.

There are many i want to tell, to whom? I dont know, sometime i how god is there to listen to me. I want to ask, why my life is different than other, why must i go through this kind of pain, this kind of lesson? I am tired of tried. Can i have a short break?

My tears already dry up, no more to spare. how long more you want me to sleep with my tears, my nightmare, my broken heart. IS that a punishment for me? Since how long when it started? I cant remember of it anymore. Why dont you just K.O me?

There one of my friend who test me and asked me to promise her not to EMO!! i did it when she is there for me, she is there to give me support, but now she gone, I cant keep the promise anymore. SO sorry.

I understand how life goes. HOw life be. Just i dont understand why must i be fate like this.
Many people said we walk our path, i also want to believe in it, but too bad it just an excuse for those who dont want to believe it. I want to walk my path but how? i want everything goes like what i hope, but how? SO many how? HOw can i get those answer?

Please tell me how. i want to know? I am too small in this world, but i want to make someone feel warm with the only small power i had. To make them feel good with me.